im useless!

Windy night.

im sad n down tonight cause i've started to
think of those impossible stuff again.
Ah jie. im sorry for wad i did tonight. But i don mean it. IM SORRY.
Ah jie. promise me next time when im nt ard with u,
don drink too much okay? i'll be worried about u.

lets start from noon bah, hmmm. today actually have a gd rest cause
don have to work today in the morning n night,
casue i took off actually. So wake up ard 2 plus, haha. shiock life right?
very long den have once bah.
i was too tired ydae. reach home ard 1plus from work,
den bath liao without drying my hair already cant stand it
anymore to get a rest. haha. so watched death notes when i wake up,
actually i've watched this movie before in the past, but i do like this
show, its nice n interesting oh.
How i hope i can write my name inside the death notes.
kidding la, lol. its jus a show only.

Actually its remind me about ydae, went out with her.
thot of going to qian hu at CCK
but its was abit far cause she gonna meet her fren at ard 4plus mah,
so instead of going qian hu,
we went to tampinese mall n century square to shop ard den
have our lunch at pizza hut before we catch a movie at 2.30.
We was like so full after eating our lunch,
cant finish our meal actaully cause both us was very full. haha.
Was abit not happy with pizza hut staffs
cause he dropped some plate
on the floor jus next beside our table, not even a single words nor
apologise to us n still give us face!
i don like this type of person, we don own u anything!
so after lunch we walked ard because still early before our show start,
MIRROR(M18)-its a nice show but quite disgusting sia,
i feel like vomiting while watching
this show but don have a good ending so i'll only give 3 1/2 star only.
Maybe they can make the ending parts more interesting bah.
its not scary at all but disgusting.

Back to today,
went to my workplace and get something den
susan mummy passed me red packet for my birthday. hee hee.
Thanks Susan Mummy.
while back home to bedok, inside train, really omg, cant stand sia.
those stupid china ppl toking damn loud in the train like their home sia,
wad the hell think they are, they're jus shit.
EVERYONE was like so angry lo.
wa lao, every where in spore oso can see them, really sianz lo.

At night time,
while waiting bus to inter before meet ah jie,
things happened today again! really nt in my luck. stupid china ppl,
saw jun xiang at bus stop den we started coversation like
how we doing, hows life while waiting for bus
cause we like more den a yr nvr contact liao,
he oso changed his phone no.
when the bus arrived, we about board in the bus den
there was a few china men, they was like so rush to get up the bus,
one of them actually stepped on xiang
leg den he was abit angry by the time,
one of time ez-link cards don have money
still wanna act like have losta money inside the card,
den he was like toking shit with the driver,
the driver its nice cause he actually asked us to boarded in first but
instead of giving way they blocked our way,
one them even pushed xiang away,
so xiang cant control himself so we started a fight with them lo,
kicked one of them down the bus, in the end the driver
asked them to f*ck off from the bus.
really wasted our time sia, wasted ard 15min.

get on time to meet ah jie. haha. we meet each other at
bugis mrt contorl station there before we headed to
The Boozer Room. it had been quite sometime
which i nvr drink in a pub nor ktv.
Full house sia but ah jie already booked a table le,
so we get to settle down in a while,
and awhile later we started to drink le,
den started our game n photo session taking.
Ah jie, i did enjoy myself today, thanks for the present oso. =)
But i hate myself, cause my face n body will turns red easily
after drinking no matter how many gls, but i wont get drunk tat
easily cause i've trained before when work time. Den ah jie n her fren
was like asking me im alright not but i keep on drinking non stop,
empty the gls whenever martell pour on my gls.
But as a promise to ah jie,
i'll try to quit drinking from todays onward,
tink i'll call it a quit cause whenever i have drink i'll started,
to tink those rubbish stuff again. Really makes me down.
its really hurts, i had no choice, i gotta put down everything
but i jus cant forget , HER SMILE,
HER VOICE, HER LOOKS WHEN SHE'S SLEEPING, HER!

Its my first time to make ah jie angry althought she say
she's not angry but i can feel it. my apologise to make u angry.
cause of rubbish-crappy coversation when u all thot im high,
say i wanna have joyce to be my gal,
haha, ah jie, im jus making myself out of my unhappinese,
will only be fren with joyce, she's not my type of gal.
but im happy to know her as a fren. ah jie, do u know how i feel mah?
i really think im kinda of childish nor useless cause never ever
i cant put anything down which happen in the past.
I really cant put it down! NEVER!
im sorry ah jie. but im really happy to spend my night with u.

Maybe being a brother, im not a good brother. Im jus a useless nor
lousy person. Useless in everything! Don have any good point, Have a
very sux attitude. Don pity me. i don need anyone to pity me,
jus let me be, no one can stand me, let me have my own world.
don get to close to me, i'll be cold blood animal soon,
wont have anymore feeling . i have no choice,
cause i don wan anyone to worry about me,
looking for me during middle of the night,
flooded my text box,
calling me non-stop,
and even waited for me outside my ah ma hse .
i don want u all to do this again, its not worth at all.
Forgive me, pls forgive bro n sis.
Seriously, i've have no choice, only this will be better for me to get over it.

*Those sister n brother, 'Zhu Peng Hao You'
gotta say im appreciate it n rbm for all ur help,
rbm it in my hearts. thanks for everything,
the old me will nvr be back from today onwards.

And those ppl who think i own them anything which i nvr,
better f*ck off from my life, pls leave urself or else i'll be very sorry.