♥A new start, A diary for me.♥

Hey fren, my old blog already closed, so i'll blog here from now on.
only here i can have my word out from my heart. im down, im sad because of her.
im tryING hard to stand up but i cant!

"why im nt gd enough? why? can anyone tell me? can you tell me? im really down, really hopeless,
really useless, really hope i can leave this world soon. i wont want anyone but jus her,
no matter how hard i try also useless. my life sux. drunk n die will better!"

(This was posted in Friendster last week till today, bro n sister im alright,
don have to worry about me. its hard for me to forget her.

It was my fault to know her and became fren and
it was my fault that she realise i like her.
And it was absoultely my fault to fall in love with her,
It's painful for mi to love her when she don't love mi at all.. Do u know?

Do u know how hurt when u say those word to me?
Do u know how i feel?

*Because of u i jus wanna get drunk for now everyday,
i don hav to tink so much from now on.
i really hope i can drunk like hell. i want to drink n die faster.
No matter how hard i try u'll not be there. Im alone, lonely life.
No one can replace u. I JUST WANT YOU.

I'll never blame on u, u don have to apologise to me, its nt ur fault. Its my fault.
Listen clearly to me, I choose to let go because i jus want u to be happy at all time,
i wish u all the best with ur guy. i wont disturb u anymore but
i'll wait for u no matter how long! im serious, i meant it.
im too useless, for life.


*saw her on 1st sep at blk 629 bus stop, i don even dare to get down the bus
at tat bus stop. why? I also donno why! Maybe im jus trying to let go.