Don feel good at all

mood for today 1/10,
i feel very bad this few day when seeing my small biao mei
(little cousin)
because of i didn't take good care of her and cause injury on her toes.
Yet i still angry n yell at her when she crying,
im not a good BROTHER. why not im the one who got myself injury?
i can see she walk damn diffcult n painful,
Thanks to me, she gotta took off toes nails n MC for a week.
i hope she can recover well fast.
i feel damnnn bad n mad about myself..
im to blame........ im useless....