28/09

Back to my childhood days.


recently we're like kids. u all should noe wad im talking about
wad! yeah, i've enjoyed. sooner later, we wont get the chance
to play anymore. ns, work n getting older.

its make me rbm my primary skool day, hahaha..

gotta stop here, later gotta wake up at 5am again. haizx
sigh.

Attachment life.

im nt happy with this attchment.

My attachment life was sux, cause i have to wake up at 5am for
everyday. nvr in my life wake up so early for work or skool.
the worse thing was i have to work with china ppl, more jialat.
really turn me crazy lo. they do tink they very gd or wad shit sia,
im new to there, don have any gd skill like them but i'll prove to
them.

For the first wk, only friday was the best day for me cause i've
transfer to another department as i requested. at least much
more relax n not so tired den tat stupid department. at least
the air much more better den the tool room. its sux over there,
cause im doing the polishing stuff for the whole day n gotta smell those
cooler n etc stuff. really make me sick !
i working non stop n they can be sitted down to relax sia. freak them!
don have a proper lunch everday, cause don have any food court nor
canteen nearby. have to take company buses out for lunch
but i hate that, cause its like only have 15min for lunch.

jus hope the rest of day will be fast and smooth for me.
don want to have any freaking stuff happen to me during work.
its kinda boring cause still have 8more days.

happy birthday- thanks for gift, bdae wishes n meal.

haha. my birthday.

this yr actually don feel like celebrating my bdae but end up,
celebration was still on. thanks bro n sis for the celebration.

started from 2wks ago 13/09, early sia! cause they going
oversea mah, after work meet gina they all
at wlds, bbq party.. i was like so shiocked tat time, its late at
the night but was like so happening lo. was forced by time to
finish a super duper big plate of food for late. hey guy, i gotta
work leh. nvr give any chance sia.

19/09
Day time,
wei, cheng, xiang, sharon, ah meow, ai shan n mei yi
celebrated with me. *angry nvr take pic. haahaha..

Night time,
ah jie celebrated with me. im happy. she brought me to a pub
for drink, but i wasn't very happy with myself cause i make her angry.

20/09
jie mei men,
meet them out for lunch, haha.. thanks for the bdae caake.

brother men,
meng, wen, hao celebrated with me. makan at 85 market. too bad,
wilson nvr join us.
makan - bbq sotong, bbq fish, satay, kangong, gong gong.

23/09 happy birthday to me.
meet ah mei they all at jovina's chalet, they treat kfc oh.
thanks. =)
din celebrated at all cause have attachment mah. actually i hope
she can celebrate with me but she don have sia. haiz.

*anyway i gotta say a big thank you to everyone. =_)

din take much picture. =x

my fav food. =)

from shanshan- my hao peng you(jiemei).

im useless!

Windy night.

im sad n down tonight cause i've started to
think of those impossible stuff again.
Ah jie. im sorry for wad i did tonight. But i don mean it. IM SORRY.
Ah jie. promise me next time when im nt ard with u,
don drink too much okay? i'll be worried about u.

lets start from noon bah, hmmm. today actually have a gd rest cause
don have to work today in the morning n night,
casue i took off actually. So wake up ard 2 plus, haha. shiock life right?
very long den have once bah.
i was too tired ydae. reach home ard 1plus from work,
den bath liao without drying my hair already cant stand it
anymore to get a rest. haha. so watched death notes when i wake up,
actually i've watched this movie before in the past, but i do like this
show, its nice n interesting oh.
How i hope i can write my name inside the death notes.
kidding la, lol. its jus a show only.

Actually its remind me about ydae, went out with her.
thot of going to qian hu at CCK
but its was abit far cause she gonna meet her fren at ard 4plus mah,
so instead of going qian hu,
we went to tampinese mall n century square to shop ard den
have our lunch at pizza hut before we catch a movie at 2.30.
We was like so full after eating our lunch,
cant finish our meal actaully cause both us was very full. haha.
Was abit not happy with pizza hut staffs
cause he dropped some plate
on the floor jus next beside our table, not even a single words nor
apologise to us n still give us face!
i don like this type of person, we don own u anything!
so after lunch we walked ard because still early before our show start,
MIRROR(M18)-its a nice show but quite disgusting sia,
i feel like vomiting while watching
this show but don have a good ending so i'll only give 3 1/2 star only.
Maybe they can make the ending parts more interesting bah.
its not scary at all but disgusting.

Back to today,
went to my workplace and get something den
susan mummy passed me red packet for my birthday. hee hee.
Thanks Susan Mummy.
while back home to bedok, inside train, really omg, cant stand sia.
those stupid china ppl toking damn loud in the train like their home sia,
wad the hell think they are, they're jus shit.
EVERYONE was like so angry lo.
wa lao, every where in spore oso can see them, really sianz lo.

At night time,
while waiting bus to inter before meet ah jie,
things happened today again! really nt in my luck. stupid china ppl,
saw jun xiang at bus stop den we started coversation like
how we doing, hows life while waiting for bus
cause we like more den a yr nvr contact liao,
he oso changed his phone no.
when the bus arrived, we about board in the bus den
there was a few china men, they was like so rush to get up the bus,
one of them actually stepped on xiang
leg den he was abit angry by the time,
one of time ez-link cards don have money
still wanna act like have losta money inside the card,
den he was like toking shit with the driver,
the driver its nice cause he actually asked us to boarded in first but
instead of giving way they blocked our way,
one them even pushed xiang away,
so xiang cant control himself so we started a fight with them lo,
kicked one of them down the bus, in the end the driver
asked them to f*ck off from the bus.
really wasted our time sia, wasted ard 15min.

get on time to meet ah jie. haha. we meet each other at
bugis mrt contorl station there before we headed to
The Boozer Room. it had been quite sometime
which i nvr drink in a pub nor ktv.
Full house sia but ah jie already booked a table le,
so we get to settle down in a while,
and awhile later we started to drink le,
den started our game n photo session taking.
Ah jie, i did enjoy myself today, thanks for the present oso. =)
But i hate myself, cause my face n body will turns red easily
after drinking no matter how many gls, but i wont get drunk tat
easily cause i've trained before when work time. Den ah jie n her fren
was like asking me im alright not but i keep on drinking non stop,
empty the gls whenever martell pour on my gls.
But as a promise to ah jie,
i'll try to quit drinking from todays onward,
tink i'll call it a quit cause whenever i have drink i'll started,
to tink those rubbish stuff again. Really makes me down.
its really hurts, i had no choice, i gotta put down everything
but i jus cant forget , HER SMILE,
HER VOICE, HER LOOKS WHEN SHE'S SLEEPING, HER!

Its my first time to make ah jie angry althought she say
she's not angry but i can feel it. my apologise to make u angry.
cause of rubbish-crappy coversation when u all thot im high,
say i wanna have joyce to be my gal,
haha, ah jie, im jus making myself out of my unhappinese,
will only be fren with joyce, she's not my type of gal.
but im happy to know her as a fren. ah jie, do u know how i feel mah?
i really think im kinda of childish nor useless cause never ever
i cant put anything down which happen in the past.
I really cant put it down! NEVER!
im sorry ah jie. but im really happy to spend my night with u.

Maybe being a brother, im not a good brother. Im jus a useless nor
lousy person. Useless in everything! Don have any good point, Have a
very sux attitude. Don pity me. i don need anyone to pity me,
jus let me be, no one can stand me, let me have my own world.
don get to close to me, i'll be cold blood animal soon,
wont have anymore feeling . i have no choice,
cause i don wan anyone to worry about me,
looking for me during middle of the night,
flooded my text box,
calling me non-stop,
and even waited for me outside my ah ma hse .
i don want u all to do this again, its not worth at all.
Forgive me, pls forgive bro n sis.
Seriously, i've have no choice, only this will be better for me to get over it.

*Those sister n brother, 'Zhu Peng Hao You'
gotta say im appreciate it n rbm for all ur help,
rbm it in my hearts. thanks for everything,
the old me will nvr be back from today onwards.

And those ppl who think i own them anything which i nvr,
better f*ck off from my life, pls leave urself or else i'll be very sorry.

12-17/09/2008

hello fren =)

its blog time again, was like so busy for they past few days.
slack, work n religion stuff. hmmm. things happen to me
again n again, really cant stand it anymore.

ANTI CHINA PPL. I HATE THEM. NO OFFENCE.
i really cant stand them anymore, they're like beast.
they think singapore is their country ah? fcuk them la,
go back to their country better. they don feel disgrace at all,
they always think tat they're very gd but shit them. its rubbish.
most of the china men was like smelly, untidy, rude n freaking
disgusting. im sure i can compare cause i do seen nor met before
those nice guy. those nice guy oso cant stand those ppl behaving like beast
from their country.

i ever met those very polite n hardworking china ppl its like 5% out of 100.
and for this type of nice ppl its okay with me, im okay with it,
cause they are human n not beast. even their salary very low,
work for long hr, but they still work very hard to make a living cause they gotta
support their family at china. this type of ppl,
anyone will oso pity them n welcome them.
shall drop this topic.

Mooncake Festival,

hmmm. lets tok about mooncake festival which jus past,
do u all celebrated this traditional speical day with ur family? bf/gf? frens?
or jus hack care. hahaha.. makan alot of mooncake?
For me will be different, for the past year till now i'll be like at temple
helping out cause my temple will have a praying session. pray for ping ann.


took some picture at my temple















zhu pin. haha. kinda sound funny right?




























wanna have some candy?




























nice?














17sep

look like small children? took tis picture while
waiting for ah meng to reach.














kinda like wishing pond. me, wilson, xing wen
n jia hao was there making wishes. hope our
wishes comes real!




























there're a few emo picture.
























































wads going? killing myself? any idea? kungfu?
nonono. im doing stupid stunt posting. standing on the road.
tat was wen n wilson good idea. lol.

im so happy, cause exam already over.

Finally exam over liao, stress free sia. hahaha. I was so tired for the past few day.

can relax oh but gonna start work le. really make me headace.

everyday have tons of work to do. my eyes gonna be painful again,

gonna stare at the computer for long hrs, really omg.

today, nth much to say. slack n slack at home watching 篮球火.

im waiting to complete the show. funny sia.

really make me laugh n laugh non-stop.gotta thank chak yong for helping me with the blog stuff,i've so long nvr blog was like so blur here n there. xiexie ni.*i wont delete this blog away.

spend my late night chit chat with yuki, we really have lots of thing to chat with,haha..

u've have a good memory unlike me. hahaha.

thanks for introduce me the music.after listening

'Karajan - Beethoven Symphony', i feel so realx sia.
catch up with u soon.

shall end here, tired le. good nights everyone.

stressful for my exam!

today is wad we call a monday bluez. really extremely tired sia.
din sleep at all for my test but end up i was so blank when doing
exam at funtion hall. miss away about 25 mark. wt*.... but i jus hope
pass will do actually.

after my exam went to cafe 1 to join my classmate for breakfast,
was so hungry n sleepy. quickly after tat rushed home to sleep.
=)

sleep until damn shoick, somebody called me n disturb sia
stupid u! angry. u should know who're u!
hahaha, im joking oke, don angry la gina. i noe u're nt purposely
calling me non stop because of work stuff mah. FORGIVE U.
after woke up got myself shower den fetch my little cousin.
she was so angry n cry because i ask her to greet others but she fail
to do so den started to cry when about to reach home.
awhile later after reaches home, feed her for dinner den she started to
laugh n tok with me. maybe she was hungry during tat time.
i feel bad when she cried infront of me.

at ard 9plus meets my hao peng you for supper at 85 market,
ah meng was so like a star sia,
everyone was looking at him when he was walking! guess wad?
he was wearing the thai boxing pants, thats why everyone was looking at him.
sexy sia. wewe. he get changed after wilson asked him to do so.
he's fit unlike me so fat. bro,
next time bring me go learn ok?
after makan we slacked there until 11plus
while waiting for the rain to stop.

Next year its my turn! haha.

Happy 21's Birthday to Ah Di.

A tired day but im happy to help.
don have enough rest at all but i did enjoy myself at my fren, ah di 21st bdae.
The whole night i was so busy sia, lol. busy to crap ard, eat, drink n cooking food. My body was so sticky n smelly sia. bbq smell lo. don tink so much.

started from afternoon, was busy carrying table n chair from place to place, really angry tat person lo, i donno why in this world have such a person. bro, u all should know who im talking about. After that, i do went home for a bath and get change and then went to ah di hse to help them carrying stuff to temple.














ard evening time, we started fire for the bbq then preparing lots of stuff. table,chair,food, drink etc. n we started to makan when the buffet arrived, food not bad oh, i like the curry! best sia. yummy! after makan we slacked a while lo, playing cards for fun. too free le, actually its we too bored le den play for fun.

ard 7plus we started to bbq and makan again. i was helping ard for cooking food, really damn hot sia. n i started to drink n drink. nt soft drink, its beer. i nvr get drunk but my face like tomato lo.

ard 8plus bdae song n bdae cake for ah di. then drink n makan all the way until 10 plus and we settle down on a table talking craps lo until 11plus den we started to pack all the stuff.

ard 12 plus, home sweet home.

ah di, thanks for inviting me for ur bdae,
i did enjoy myself, don have to be so former with me.

din took much picture, here are pic tat took on ah di bdae.

my fav food. haha.

Birthday cake. nice right.

still have quite alot of ppl not in this pic but i have a very messy hair n oily face. haha.

♥A new start, A diary for me.♥

Hey fren, my old blog already closed, so i'll blog here from now on.
only here i can have my word out from my heart. im down, im sad because of her.
im tryING hard to stand up but i cant!

"why im nt gd enough? why? can anyone tell me? can you tell me? im really down, really hopeless,
really useless, really hope i can leave this world soon. i wont want anyone but jus her,
no matter how hard i try also useless. my life sux. drunk n die will better!"

(This was posted in Friendster last week till today, bro n sister im alright,
don have to worry about me. its hard for me to forget her.

It was my fault to know her and became fren and
it was my fault that she realise i like her.
And it was absoultely my fault to fall in love with her,
It's painful for mi to love her when she don't love mi at all.. Do u know?

Do u know how hurt when u say those word to me?
Do u know how i feel?

*Because of u i jus wanna get drunk for now everyday,
i don hav to tink so much from now on.
i really hope i can drunk like hell. i want to drink n die faster.
No matter how hard i try u'll not be there. Im alone, lonely life.
No one can replace u. I JUST WANT YOU.

I'll never blame on u, u don have to apologise to me, its nt ur fault. Its my fault.
Listen clearly to me, I choose to let go because i jus want u to be happy at all time,
i wish u all the best with ur guy. i wont disturb u anymore but
i'll wait for u no matter how long! im serious, i meant it.
im too useless, for life.


*saw her on 1st sep at blk 629 bus stop, i don even dare to get down the bus
at tat bus stop. why? I also donno why! Maybe im jus trying to let go.